May 7, 2016

turmoil of mind

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when all you want is peace and absolutely no one around you, but in that place, you are so overwhelmed by all the thoughts swimming around in your head.
when you are with people because you need an incredibly large amount of distraction from yourself, but everything that humans do and say is frustrating to you.
but the area between those two is worse, it is like sitting in a room full of people with headphones on and working on something. you are frustrated with all the unintelligible noise and the people asking for your attention, you are frustrated because whatever you are working on is not coming along like it is supposed to, and it's because you are trying to use distractions to mask the turmoil of your mind. but deep down you know what is really happening, and it is you being absolutely consumed by your thoughts, which you are trying to run from because you just do not know how to approach them, 
and the last thing you want to do is try.
xo, rn