August 12, 2014

to get your heart beating

the beauty in life.
there are many, many ways to get your heart beating. but i've only found a few times where it was beating so fast that i'm thinking, "i really gotta stop doing this." 
i was looking through photos from my flickr account, trying to find some to add to this post. i usually like to do life photos, if there's no need for them to be specific, so, naturally, i clicked on that album

you see, you may not remember exactly what you're thinking, hearing, or touching, but you remember what you were feeling. you've ingrained that memory into your mind through these photos by what you were feeling in your heart. sometimes it's sadness, depression, frustration, anger... but other times it's a sweet feeling, a feeling of glee, of being happy and not knowing how you got there. 
i was just scrolling through the photos in that album, and i felt like some of those times were sacred, and, however it may be done, i want to be back in those days. the load right now is just too heavy, there are too many feelings, things on your mind, problems that just seem too huge. even though i realize i was going through problems then too, they seem so tiny, if i can even remember them.

it felt like i had a balloon in my heart, and the farther i scrolled down, the bigger that balloon got until it was pushing at the sides, itching to get out, yearning to be back. i finally had to just stop and go away from there. i've never felt quite that way before. i felt sad that those memories had gone by, but thankful i had them at the same time. it's just another reminder that instead of looking towards the future, or dwelling in the past, i need to embrace the present. hold onto each moment while it lasts, and love my life as it is. i won't ever get these moments back, and i know one day, i will want to.

enjoy your life, my friends, every moment of it.
xo, rn

8 comments:

  1. I definitely agree. life is beautiful.

    Sarah
    imsarahgrace

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    1. thank you. even the messy parts will turn beautiful when you think back on them.

      xo, rn

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  2. This is a nice post! So true, as well.

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  3. Beautiful beautiful writing. I love this post soo much (it's one of my favorites now). xx.

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    1. aw, Elisabeth! You're the sweetest. thank you so much!

      xo, rn

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yes, you have a beautiful soul.