it's such a hard thing to let go of. you think you have it down, you think you have it figured out, you think if you can just get past this last thing, everything will be okay, everything will go back to how it was, you will continue what used to be normal, and life will go on.
but it won't. it won't go on like it used to, because you were brought through that for a reason. God has a beautiful something waiting for you at the end, but in order to get there, you're going to find out that you can't get past that thing, that everything will not be okay, not until you surrender that control to Him.
and even after that, things won't go back to how they were, what was once normal will now seem foreign and impossible, and that's okay. it's good. i promise, God has something much better for you than what you used to be familiar with, and it's going to be beautiful.
but first, you must surrender that control. you can't do it on your own, i promise you can't, you may even already know that truth. let it go, and know that what is waiting for you on the other side is worth all the hurt and pain you will endure, because He is good and He knows what you need better than you do. He won't disappoint you, He won't let you down. He will be with you through the thick and thin, through it all, He loves you, He cares for you, He knows, He knows it all.