June 18, 2016

keep in mind that looking back is always 20/20

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along with these images, 'Stressed Out' (tøp) is appropriate

(june 2nd, 2016)
you know that feeling when you're struggling to find a reason, so you look back at old pictures and remember the good memories you had (like these images), and all you want is to get that back even though you know what you were feeling then and it wasn't anything better than what you're feeling now... truth is, i want that back because of the good moments. i know i don't want to go through everything again, and i'm in a much better place because of the events that took place, however painful they were, but i want the good moments that seem so rare. 

looking back is always 20/20, and those good moments are something i look back on fondly because they were rare and sweet and beautiful, and i would give anything to have that in this moment that i am in... but the hard reminder is that i do have those moments now, they're just different than they were, and when i'm through this, i'll be able to see them for what they were, and they'll be just as good.

it's hard to keep going when everything seems against you, i find this to be true more often than i don't, it seems, but the most important thing to remember, is that when you've stood the test, once you've gone through the trial, you will be grateful. you will look back and say 'that was good', you will be thankful for how you were stretched and grown. the person you will be at the end of this will be a stronger person than you are right now, and that's good. it's okay to not be okay, but when you're feeling completely helpless and lost, remember that one day you will look back and you'll understand why.
xo, rn

10 comments:

  1. i feel you girl.
    these pictures + words are beautiful.
    -s

    p.s. what kinda nikon do you have?

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    1. aw, thank you so much, sarah! i use a D7100 (with the 35mm, 50mm, and 85mm lenses), but this body is somewhat new. i used to use the D5100 with the same lenses... however, for the vast majority of these photos, i used my iPhone 5s or 6.

      xx, rn

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  2. I love this Rachel, hope you're feeling okay! Xx

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    1. aw, thank you, Anna! i am doing pretty well, and i hope you are also.

      xx, rn

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  3. Wow, this was great! This is just how I feel right now....like the past was somehow golden and glittering, while today is just ok. But I know I will look back and see the present days in a golden way, too. Just like you said! Thank you for posting this. It's a great reminder to always, always enjoy the moment, and never look forget that the past is complicated, not perfect.

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    1. thank you, Erin! you are so sweet. and i am so glad you enjoyed this post. keep your head up, things will get better. xx, rn

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  4. life is changing and i hope i look back on my memories with the fondness that this post has. may God continue to lead you on this trippy, dusty road of life & may you never forget that memories are meant to be created.

    ((also p.s. your fashion sense is iMPeccable darling hahaha ily <3))

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    1. and the same yo you, my friend! you are the most wonderful and sweetest friend. i love you!

      xx, rn
      ps- thank you so much! <3

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  5. I love the photo with the graffiti!

    Grace
    golden halcyon

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yes, you have a beautiful soul.