November 3, 2016

dear anon. i don't blame you.

dear, anon. 
you have commented on my blog frequently, always taking the name anon to hide your identity. 
i don't blame you, because after reading, and then deleting, all of your comments, I would not want anyone to know it was me writing those, either.
truth is, i am glad you chose me to hate on...call me weird, but i am. why? because i can handle it. it doesn't bother me like you want it to, and you won't get some hateful reaction back, because i think that you're hurting and the reason you're doing what you do is that you want others to hurt, too.
but about the comment you left on my last post...something was tugging at me to acknowledge it. maybe that's what you've been wanting, maybe that's why you keep coming back, either way, i published that comment, and i responded to it...here is that response: 
hey anon,
no. i don't know who you are, and obviously that is how you want it. you've commented on my site so many times, and every time you never have anything nice to say. at this point, i wonder why you even bother anymore.
the fact that you don't ever have anything nice to say does not bother me like you want it to. i've been dished plenty of crap in my life, and it seems that you are also struggling from that. i am truly sorry, it's not a great feeling, and it hurts.
truth is, i have never been more myself and i do truly love who i am. your words will not reach my heart like you want them to. 
even though i know i don't have to explain myself, i can also say that i have never spent any money on followers in my life, and i never will.
if you do truly mean the words you say, i am sorry you do, but it makes me wonder why you keep up with me. you obviously read my instagram posts and my words here on this blog. i don't know why, but you do. something is making you come back, and maybe you should dig into why that is.
i am here if you would ever like to talk. i would love to help you in any way that i can. 
you have great value. you are so very loved.

xx, rn

6 comments:

  1. ugh, i'm sorry, Rachel; people need to get a life. just pathetic and sad.

    xx
    s

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    1. you are so sweet, thank you always for your kind words. <3

      xx, rn

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  2. aw, anon comments can be a pain. seriously an amazing response though - keep staying the strong, beautiful version of you that you are now.

    xx,
    m.

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    1. aw, thank you so much for your kind words, Megann! love you!

      xx, rn

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  3. I love your heart and how you are handling this with grace. You are loving like how we should be loving -- like Christ.

    Mikayla | Mikayla Christiansen Blog.

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    1. you are so sweet, thank you, Mikayla!

      xx, rn

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yes, you have a beautiful soul.