after work today i decided to take a few moments
and think about something i have accomplished. i wasn't going to allow my
negative thoughts to cloud my thinking, as i know i've accomplished plenty of
things in my life, even if my mind is used to thinking the opposite.
today, the thing i'm most proud of accomplishing is
that i am a successful adult. just saying that sounds weird, but it's true.
every day i have to get up to an alarm (or 7, in my case), every day i have to
get ready and consciously make the decision to continue my education, or
continue working hard and earning money to better my future, sometimes, and
most often, i make both of those decisions.
throughout the day, i am making decisions on my
own. i can choose who helps make those decisions, but overall, it is my
own thinking that is involved.
i do my research, i know what i stand for, i know
what i believe in, i know what i value. some of these things were taught to me
at a young age, but eventually i had to go out and see what was true for me,
some of those things i was taught were reinforced, others were let go of. i am
still learning, i am still digging, i am still researching, every day, because
i like to know what is going on around me.
most days, i enjoy being an adult. most days i
enjoy attending classes, having deep, interesting and insightful conversations
with my teachers, coworkers, siblings, friends, elders, and peers. other days i
wish i could just stay in bed for a few minutes longer. other days i wish i
wasn't so busy that staying up until 2:30am was absolutely necessary, some days are
hard, and some days i wish that maybe this was my last day.
the thing is, on those days i can make different
decisions. i've found that it's okay to skip a class for health reasons, i have
found that it's okay to ask for a day off of work to try to catch up on life
stuff, it's okay to let someone know that you can't physically do something
with them because you're just so exhausted and in need of some extra time.
those decisions are hard to make, but good to make.
i enjoy being an adult, i enjoy thinking for myself, i enjoy being stretched and i enjoy growing, i enjoy
learning many different things about the world, about what i believe and why i
believe it, and about myself. this is important, and though i definitely don't
have it figured out by any means, i have accomplished being a successful adult
who makes mistakes, and realizing that making those mistakes is part of the
process.
oh my, I love this.
ReplyDeleteaw, thank you, Grace! i am so glad you do. :)
Deletexx, rn
How would you describe adventure? What types of adventures do you go on? What does adventure mean to you?
ReplyDeletesomething that is usually out of the ordinary that makes me come alive... that brings out my adventurous side.
Deletethats hard, there are so many ways i can adventure... going out and taking photos with my friends, going for country road drives, just going and doing something and not having a reason for it, but just because you can.
it means freedom, it reminds me that i am not held back by anything, it means wind in my hair and not a care in the world, it means letting go of whatever i may be clinging to... there isn't really any set answer, it's just doing whatever because you've only got one life and living it to the fullest is what you should always strive to do.
xx, rn